Whenever i write about my ongoing fight to climb out of my emotional hole, I feel guilty afterward about potentially worrying my friends or having my blogs seem like cries for help or attention. i do love help and attention and I guess maybe there’s some of that in there somewhere. i am not immune to the satisfactions that come with feeling sorry for onesself. but I’m mostly writing them to get this stuff out of my system, and usually the crisis is over by the time I do, so don’t worry too much. I’d just make them private, but the point is kind of to own it all in the open so it doesn’t feel shameful that i’m sad or needy or alone or whatever i’m feeling. but i’m not trying to make anyone nervous for me or around me. And when you see me in person I’m generally really happy anyway. Because i’m seeing you. A person. In Person!